Wish I could stop being so sad...

Wish I could stop being so sad,
Cause life will never bring me back what I had
But I refuse to stay in pain alone,
Just because I'm meant to be on my own

Wish I could know why I have to cry,
Just cause a dream could make me fly
If only it would make sense being alone,
Cause I believe my soul is almost gone

Wonder why I became so distant,
So thoughtful, lost in my own world,
Cause every time I try to smile again,
A tear will drop cause of this pain

If writting is the only way to find my heart,
Then why my words don't even have a start?
Why do I feel so pushed apart?
Separated from all I ever wanted to be...