If only I could find myself again

If only I could find myself again,
Or at least the person that I really am
Cause when I look over the years,
I just can't picture why I am like this

My words always make more sense on the paper,
If only I'd be able to just say them
But there is one last thing that's stopping me,
My thoughts just don't want to leave me

They want to stay just as they are,
Misunderstood and lost where I let them
Just so my mind won't get to far,
And make things more complicated then they are

If only I could find myself again,
But I just can't be found
You can either take me as I am,
Or search my past and find...